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Might as well repost the one-shot
Tuesday, July 11th, 2023 11:20 amFirst things first : I used to write fanfictions. I used to write fanfictions, not reread them at all, and then publish them on fanfiction.net.
Then, sometime in the 2010's, i decided to remove everything I wrote from the site because I was planning to write a book and I didn't think it would look professional (lol) to have fanfiction online if I was going to write something "serious" (re-lol). Anyway, a few years later, my external drive containing all my old fanfictions died (re-re-lol) and I lost nearly everything I ever wrote :). I have since also reviewed my stance on the professionalism of having fanfictions online as a published author lmao.
At the time, I was also trying very hard to re-write one of my fanfic as a "serious novel". Too hard, even. I kind of stopped writing at all around the same time. I guess I got discouraged or something.
But the fic I was trying to re-write was still haunting me :)
That fic was pretty much me finding a translation of the lyrics to Schwarz Stein's New Vogue Children, took it, and ran with it. I had made Hora into a mad scientist who made human flesh hungry babies to his trans girlfriend, Kaya, who also was trying to escape the kind of soured relationship they had (unrelated the the mad science of it :) ). Now my idea of her being rescued by a cop (Juka lol) was probably not the best, but hey, it was 2008 or something, when I first wrote these. I WAS NINETEEN. Also, the story derailed sooooo much, it barely had anything to do with the new vogue children themselves, by the end. It might be why its brainrot never really went away, tbh.
I have since scrapped the idea that this should be a science fiction story and made it into... gothique fantasy ? lol. Magic took over the science of it, partly because the science I used to make these "babies" "realistic" was based in real science and nowadays it actually is possible to "create" a baby without a womb, so i was not really comfortable with calling this science fiction anymore lol (i thought it was far fetched in 2008, mind you T_T)
And, since then, Hora became Orlège (and has been Orlège since 2013 !) and Kaya became 378 different characters tbh..... until I figured out that I can write a trans woman without it being complicated (it was very complicated, in 2008, apparently, ... ugh). She's still the main character though ! And her name now is Astride. And they're both mad because it's not fair to put all that on Orlège, lmao.
I've also understood, since then, that I'm processing a lot, mostly a lot of trauma, through my characters. It's probably why i write them so dramatically. But also, now i'm doing it on purpose instead of just letting it happen :). I'm never gonna stop writing tragic characters ehehhehehe.
Also, New Vogue Children (mine) was written in french, and I used to write mostly in french too. I only became fluent enough in english in the past few years and only now do I feel like I have a grasp on english good enough to actually use it in a literary context. The book i'm writing is being so in french as well. I'm using short stories to help make sense out of my outlining, so not everything that I wrote in english will end up in the final product.
So the one-shot ! I wrote this back in january, to shake rust off, to see if I could still write. I re-read it recently and made a few correction and decided I still liked it. There is not a lot of worldbuilding to it, as I'm thinking i'm gonna write more of these, but also because i wanted to focus more on Astride's emotions. The piece was inspired by Evanescence's Your Star, the Synthesis version. That's where the lyrics, at the end, are coming from.
( Short story under the cut ! )
originally posted here
Then, sometime in the 2010's, i decided to remove everything I wrote from the site because I was planning to write a book and I didn't think it would look professional (lol) to have fanfiction online if I was going to write something "serious" (re-lol). Anyway, a few years later, my external drive containing all my old fanfictions died (re-re-lol) and I lost nearly everything I ever wrote :). I have since also reviewed my stance on the professionalism of having fanfictions online as a published author lmao.
At the time, I was also trying very hard to re-write one of my fanfic as a "serious novel". Too hard, even. I kind of stopped writing at all around the same time. I guess I got discouraged or something.
But the fic I was trying to re-write was still haunting me :)
That fic was pretty much me finding a translation of the lyrics to Schwarz Stein's New Vogue Children, took it, and ran with it. I had made Hora into a mad scientist who made human flesh hungry babies to his trans girlfriend, Kaya, who also was trying to escape the kind of soured relationship they had (unrelated the the mad science of it :) ). Now my idea of her being rescued by a cop (Juka lol) was probably not the best, but hey, it was 2008 or something, when I first wrote these. I WAS NINETEEN. Also, the story derailed sooooo much, it barely had anything to do with the new vogue children themselves, by the end. It might be why its brainrot never really went away, tbh.
I have since scrapped the idea that this should be a science fiction story and made it into... gothique fantasy ? lol. Magic took over the science of it, partly because the science I used to make these "babies" "realistic" was based in real science and nowadays it actually is possible to "create" a baby without a womb, so i was not really comfortable with calling this science fiction anymore lol (i thought it was far fetched in 2008, mind you T_T)
And, since then, Hora became Orlège (and has been Orlège since 2013 !) and Kaya became 378 different characters tbh..... until I figured out that I can write a trans woman without it being complicated (it was very complicated, in 2008, apparently, ... ugh). She's still the main character though ! And her name now is Astride. And they're both mad because it's not fair to put all that on Orlège, lmao.
I've also understood, since then, that I'm processing a lot, mostly a lot of trauma, through my characters. It's probably why i write them so dramatically. But also, now i'm doing it on purpose instead of just letting it happen :). I'm never gonna stop writing tragic characters ehehhehehe.
Also, New Vogue Children (mine) was written in french, and I used to write mostly in french too. I only became fluent enough in english in the past few years and only now do I feel like I have a grasp on english good enough to actually use it in a literary context. The book i'm writing is being so in french as well. I'm using short stories to help make sense out of my outlining, so not everything that I wrote in english will end up in the final product.
So the one-shot ! I wrote this back in january, to shake rust off, to see if I could still write. I re-read it recently and made a few correction and decided I still liked it. There is not a lot of worldbuilding to it, as I'm thinking i'm gonna write more of these, but also because i wanted to focus more on Astride's emotions. The piece was inspired by Evanescence's Your Star, the Synthesis version. That's where the lyrics, at the end, are coming from.
I've always had trouble figuring out genre and all that, but i can say this is kind of a slow build. Like I said, I focused more on emotions than on actual story telling, in this, so I don't know that this makes for a good introduction to my characters LOL but here it still is.
Roughly 6500 words, or 9 pages.
( Short story under the cut ! )
originally posted here
